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Sex and Spirituality
The False Structure
A person who is fighting against his sex energy, will suppress, and fighting is suppression. He will push this energy down somewhere into the subconsciousness or unconsciousness and create a false structure above ground. The structure will be false because energies have not been transformed which can make it real. The structure is phony. Underground or in the subconsciousness the real energies have been repressed. The real energies will always remain there working, and waiting, any moment they can explode. You are just sitting on a volcano, and every moment that volcano is trying to erupt. If it does, your structure will be shaken. Your intelligence, your morality, your religion, your so-called being above animal things disappears. A person who suppresses there procreative energy will start seeing it everywhere. Everything will becomes sexual. Not that everything is, but now he projects. His or her hidden energy is now projected. Everywhere he or she will see sex, and because he is condemning himself he will start condemning everyone. His own "mind" will become more and more sexual, and more and more he will be afraid.
Celibacy is Perversion
First; learn how to move in it, how to know it, how to feel it. learn how to come to the deepest possibility hidden in it. How to find the essential beauty, the essential happiness and bliss that is hidden there. You can take a vow of celibacy. It will make no difference to your instinct. It simply goes underground and when it comes up, your vows of celibacy will prove to be just dreamlike stuff. This form of celibacy is perversion, it is not natural. It is a forced celibacy, and true celibacy is not achieved through fight or conflict. They cannot face the real. Your consciousness right now is just a shadow. It is not a real thing. It has no substance in it. When your energy asserts its self, where will your mind be? Where is your consciousness, where is your morality, where are your vows that you have taken so many times? They simply disappear. When this energy has moved again to its cave, to its underground, you start repenting. Those phony fellows start gathering again. They start talking, condemning and planning for the future, and again in the future the same will happen. So, these are the two attitudes: you can either suppress your procreative energy. Then you will never go beyond it. Or, you can use this energy in a creative way - not saying “no” to it, but giving it a deep “yes,” not forcing it underground, but creating a structure above ground with it. Then you will be a real man. It will be difficult, obviously, but it can be done, others have done it and so can you.
Your Creative Energy Must be Transformed
That is why we choose the easier path. It is easy to have a false structure because nothing is needed; to deceive yourself, you can create a false structure easily. To create a reality is a difficult task. It is worthwhile, once you have created something out of it, for example; “Love,” if sex is transformed, it becomes love; if it is suppressed, it becomes hatred. You become afraid of love if you suppress sex.A person who has suppressed this natural energy will always be afraid of love. Why? Because the moment love comes intercourse will follow. Love is the "soul" and sex is the body. So, love cannot be allowed to happen because then intercourse will follow. So a person who has suppressed sex cannot be loving. He may show, he may pretend, that he is very loving, but he cannot be because he is so afraid. He cannot touch you with a loving hand because fear is there. The loving hand can, at any moment turn to be a sexual touch. So he will be afraid, he will not allow you to touch him. He may create many justifications for it but the real thing is fear, fear of the instinct he has repressed. Any energy that is repressed reverse itself and goes to its original nature. Sex moves easily toward love, that is a natural flow. If you prevent it, if you create a hindrance to its path, it will become hatred. So all your so-called saints and so-called moral teachers, if you look deep into them you will find them filled with hatred, and that is bound to be, it is natural. Any moment it can erupt, they are sitting on a dangerous volcano.
Understand This Energy
You are to understand this energy, your consciousness is to understand, and understanding in itself becomes the transformation. If you do not understand it, every effort is bound to be a failure, and harmful. So, first understand it, and through understanding, the path will be revealed. You are not to force your energies on that path (Celibacy). Through understanding you come to know the "law". Just like in science, what are you doing in science? You come to understand a natural law; a natural mystery is revealed. Once the natural mystery is revealed, you can use the energy creatively. Without your knowing the inherent law, all efforts are doomed. Understand this energy, be alert, try to find out its ways and how it works. What are its functions? And be constantly aware of the very movement of your sexual instincts within. If you can be conscious of its instincts there will be no division. You will not have an unconscious mind. Once you know that secret; you can transcend it, because really, in a deep orgasm it is not sex which gives you bliss it is something else. that something else can be divided into three (3) elements. When I speak about these elements, do not think that you can understand them just from these words, they must become part of your experience, as concepts, they are useless.
Three (3) Elements
Because of these three basic elements you come to a blissful moment. Those three elements are, first, timelessness; you transcend time completely, you forget time completely. Secondly; you loose your ego, you become ego-less. You and your beloved are lost into something else. Thirdly; you are natural for the first time. The unreal is lost, the faces; the facades are lost, the culture, the civilization is lost.These three things give you the ecstasy. All meditation techniques are essentially the experience of sex without the encounter, but you have to go through it. It must become part of your experience; not just be there as concepts, ideas, thoughts. Sex is for transcendence, it is to help you transcend. But remember, you can transcend only through experience, not through ideology. Only through knowledge does transcendence happen. Your body is a treasury of hidden forces, of mysterious possibilities, in your body is the whole cosmos in miniature, it is just a miniature of the whole cosmos. Do not fight with it.
What is Sex ?
Throughout the whole cosmos, creation is going on every moment, that is what the procreative energy is-in you. And if there is so much force in it, it is because you are needed to be a creator. If this energy is so powerful in you, it only means that you cannot be allowed to be non-creative,you must create. If you cannot create something greater, then at least create life. Create something greater or better than you, create someone who will replace you when you die. It is so forceful because the cosmos cannot allow you to be non-creative, and you are fighting with it. Use it.There is no need to use this natural energy only in reproduction.In every creation sex is used. Why,? Because sex energy is creative energy. That is why a great poet, a great painter, may not feel so much of an urge to procreate, for cohabitation. The reason is not that he is a saint. The reason is simply this, he is creating something and the need is fulfilled. A great musician is creating music. No father can feel as much fulfillment as a musician feels when a great piece of music is created, and no son can give so much happiness to any parent as a great piece of music can give to a musician or great poetry can give to a poet. Because he is creating on higher realms, nature relieves him of lower creation. The energy has moved higher. So do not fight with this energy, allow the energy to move higher. There are Masters who are neither a painter, nor musician, nor a poet, and they have gone beyond sex. What has happened? The highest creation is the creation of oneself. The highest creation is the creation of total consciousness within. Creation of a whole being within, oneness. Normally when you move pro-creatively, you create your body, the replica is created. When you move on higher levels you create spirit, you create "soul", if you allow me the expression, you create "God!" Creative energy going up, not out, will create a God-man from the hu-man.
The Way to Know is Not Through Conflict.
Energy can move in two dimensions. If it moves in fight, you are wasting it every day. If it accumulates; and there is no fight, a moment comes just like when you are heating water to a hundred degrees, the water becomes something else, it evaporates. Then it is not liquid any more. It becomes a gas. It will not become transformed at 99 degrees. It will become transformed only at a hundred degrees. The same happens inwards. We are wasting energy every day and the evaporating point never comes. It cannot come because energy is not accumulating at all. This is what is happening. You have sex, and at the end you throw energy out. Afterward you feel depressed, against it, and will think of renouncing life and talking a vow of celibacy against it. Of course, these vows will not go on long. Within twenty-four hours you will be recharged, okay, and ready to move again. And this becomes a repetition and the whole thing seems futile. You accumulate energy, then you throw it away and nothing results out of it, and there is a long boredom. The way to know is not through conflict. You cannot know anything if you are in a fighting mood, because then you are not receptive. Then because you are fighting, secrets will be hidden from you. You are a play of energy and nothing less. Sex is the deepest biological center within you, your every cell is a sex cell energy phenomenon. When you were born, two sex cells met and your being was created, your body was created. Those two cells are everywhere in your body. They have multiplied and multiplied and multiplied, but your basic unit remains the SEX cell. And unless you understand this energy and transcend it, you will never be anything more. Right now, you are nothing but sex energy. You can be more, but if you do not understand this and do not transcend it, you will never be anything more. If you are fighting with this energy, you are always on the outside. If you surrender in the act, you reach the very inner core of it; you then have become an insider. If you surrender, then many things become known. You have been in sex before, many times, but always with a fighting attitude. Behind it, you have not known the life-giving forces of this energy. You don’t know and can’t know the secrets hidden there, that need’s an “insider.” If you are really flowing with your energy, totally surrendered, sooner or later you will arrive at the point where you will know that sex can do more than give birth to a new life; it can give you More Life. For lovers, the act can become a life-giving force, but for that you need to surrender. The first step is to accept. The first step is very difficult, to accept the fact of your sexual energy. When you are not having intercourse, the energy is still there. It is not that someone or something has excited your energy. It is always there as a part of your constitution. Even if you are alone, the energy is still there. Sex is your energy, it is the physical, biological you. It is not that sometimes it flares up, NO!. It cannot flare up if it were not always there. You can turn it on, and you can turn it off. In situations you change, but inwardly you remain the same.
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