Self-RememberingYour self-remembering cannot be reflected in your "mind" . living in the mind is as if someone is living in a mirror. Your mind is a reflecting phenomenon, and we are living in the mind. We must descend from our thrones, come down from our heads. We are living, but we are not aware that we are, or that we are living. There is no self-remembering. You are aware of everything around you, but you are not aware of your own self. You may be aware of the whole world, but if you are not aware of yourself that awareness is false. Why? Because your mind can reflect everything, but your mind cannot reflect you. If you are aware of yourself, then you have transcended the mind. Your self-remembering cannot be reflected in your mind because you are behind the mind. It can reflect only things which are in front of it. You can see others, but you cannot see yourself. If you want to see yourself you will need a mirror. Only in the mirror can you see yourself, but then you’ll have to stand in front of the mirror. If your mind is a mirror,it can reflect the whole world. It cannot reflect you because you cannot stand in front of it. You are always behind the mirror. Remember yourself, what so ever you are doing. It is very difficult, it looks very easy, but you will go on forgetting. Even for three or four seconds you cannot remember yourself. You will have a feeling that you are remembering, and suddenly you will have moved to some other thought. Even with this thought that okay I am remembering my self, you will have missed, because a thought is not self-remembering. In self-remembering there will be no thought, you will be completely empty. And self-remembering is not a mental process. Remember, mind or mining is a process of Word’s, so it is not that you say, yes, I AM. Saying yes I am you have missed. This is a mind thing, this is a mental process, saying I am. You must feel the I am, not the word I am. Don’t verbalize. Just feel that you are. Don’t think, feel! try it, it is difficult, but if you go on insisting it happens. While walking, remember yourself, remember that you are. Remember, mind or mining is a process Don’t have the thought or any idea, just feel. This nonverbal feeling even if for only a single moment, will give you a glimpse, a glimpse no L S D, marijuana or cocaine can give, a glimpse which is of the real. For a single moment you are thrown back to the center of your being. You are still behind the mirror, but now you have transcended the world of reflections, the world of mind. And you can do it at any time. It doesn’t need any special place or any special time. And you cannot say, I have no time. When eating you can do it, when taking a bath you can do it, when moving or sitting you can do it. No matter what you are doing, you can suddenly remember yourself. And when you are remembering try to continue this glimpse, try to stay in that present moment. It will be difficult. One moment you will feel that it is there, the next moment you will have moved away. Some thought will have entered, some reflection will have come to you, and you will have become involved in the reflection. But don’t be sad and don’t be disappointed. This is so, because for lives together we have been concerned with the reflection, and this has become a robot like mechanism. Instantly, automatically, we are thrown to the reflection. But if even for a single moment you have the glimpse it is enough for the beginning. And why is it enough? Because you will never get two moments together. Only one moment is with you always. And if you can have the glimpse for a single moment, you can remain in it for all eternity, only effort is needed, a continuous effort is needed. A single moment is given to you. You cannot have two moments together, so don’t worry about two moments. You will always get only one moment.
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